The ultimate question that has no concrete evidence to serve as proof of its answer – what happens after we leave this physical existence we call life? I don’t know the answer any more than anyone else, but I do have an image of what it might be like — and the loss of three [...]
First of all, a disclaimer – although I was raised as a Southern Baptist, my thoughts and beliefs are not based on any particular religious dogma. I am, in fact, leery of all organized religion because I see it as a man-made construct that is all too often used to wield power over the masses [...]
Sometimes I wonder if my existence has made a difference to anyone else. Although I know intellectually that my life has made some impact on the lives of my friends, at least on a small scale, I wonder just how memorable I am. I wonder if my being here matters to anyone.
Since I don’t have children, [...]
Most of the time, I feel very small and insignificant – a feeling left over from when I was a small child and so shy that I would tiptoe across the linoleum floor in kindergarten, so my Mary Janes wouldn’t make any noise as I walked. I wanted to be invisible, even back then.
When I [...]
I have been married and divorced three times in my life. That’s a fact, and I can’t change it. I’ve been divorced now for 11 years, and have pretty much settled into the idea that I’ll likely be on my own for the foreseeable future. Oh, I’ve had relationships — although most were extremely short. [...]
I’ve always had issues with my weight, even when in hindsight I wasn’t too terribly heavy. Looking at my childhood school photos, I appeared to be normal weight until about fifth grade, when the chubbiness started to set in for awhile. Even in junior high, I didn’t look bad – nothing we’d look twice at [...]
Sometimes I reflect on my day-to-day emotional state. I’m usually very steady in my emotional level — I don’t get giddily happy very often, nor do I routinely feel sad or depressed. Mostly, I’m just “there” — blah, bland, somewhere in the middle. I think psychologists would call it a “flat affect”. According to this [...]
